What Is I AM, Really?
Many spiritual teachers speak about a sense of Oneness with Source/Creator/God/All That Is/The Great I AM. It is a union of their perceived/physical self with the “I AM Presence”, which is the divine spark within each of us. It’s a beautiful ideal, and some people speak as if they truly may have achieved that Oneness, but I admit I have felt left out of that party.
Amid a very long and roundabout search for Source/Creator/God, I want to share with you that I finally found It! Inside my heart! It was amazing!
In one of the books I read, I had heard that there is a single cell in your heart that was there from early gestation, created as the first heart cell in your body, and it hasn’t changed or turned over (like many of our other bodily cells do). That’s always been in the back of my mind as a curious mystery, and left at that. One day during meditation I was led to try to connect with that original heart cell, and I did! I felt it broadcasting a signal that simply said “I AM. I AM Always”, and it told me that it broadcasted that signal to everyone all the time. People don’t always receive/perceive it properly, because they have too many layers of illusion and discord, but those who can receive it do, and that signal goes everywhere. I kept hearing/feeling “I Am. I have always been.” And then I thought of Gregg Braden’s gematria discovery that written in our DNA is literally “God/eternal, within the body”, and that landed like a stone of Truth in my mind and heart.
The really exciting thing is, this was just minutes after affirming that I am determined to see the Truth. That morning, after doing some contemplative reading, it struck me that after all these years that I am still just operating on faith, and that I had not really ever felt a tremendous sense of oneness with God. Once in a great while, I will feel a sense of oneness with people or nature, but never yet the “God Spark” in me. Even through all the reading, studying, searching and listening I do…I am taking it all simply on faith. I just acknowledged how far I’ve come on faith alone, how dramatically my life has changed for the better, and so I am happy to continue as long as it takes. And then moments later, I felt this incredible connection to the I AM Presence in meditation!! I got the message that all this time, I have been visualizing the ‘I AM Presence’ as outside of myself and above me, and not really “feeling” it within me. But now knowing and feeling it inside my heart, I will never be separate from it again.
Four really important lessons strike me here:
Prayers are getting answered more and more quickly. It was literally within 20 minutes of my saying to the Universe “I want to see the Truth” that this wonderful connection and insight happened. Many people are seeing/feeling a swift ramp up of speed between their requests and manifestations.
I think the fact that I just surrendered my desire played a big part in this unfolding. Instead of getting angry that it hadn’t happened for me yet, I just acknowledged where I was at, and surrendered to the process, whatever it was going to be.
Once again, I was reminded that Feeling is Everything. Source/Universe/Quantum Field/Spirit, whatever you want to call it, responds not to what we say or think, but to what we FEEL. What we feel in our heart and body is what is manifested in our lives.
The fact that this signal is constantly broadcasting to others, as well as our individual feelings, is how we all connect/interact/create our world. It’s what makes heart-centered living work for the highest good of everyone.
Genius! Amazing!!
