“Create” Call
Several years ago, I started getting this message to “Create”. That’s all it said. I felt it rather than heard it, and had NO idea what it meant, or if “they” were even speaking to me! So, of course I ignored it for a few years, until it became too frequent and insistent to ignore. Unfortunately, it never elaborated on the message, either, so I was left in confusion about its meaning for quite a few years. (I still don’t know for sure, but I’m getting an inkling.) In the meantime, work in corporate America grew more disheartening and stressful, and I allowed that stress to drive me into the hospital a few times, until I decided I didn’t want to die at my desk doing meaningless work for a meaningless reason in a corporate structure that was set up to reward the selfish. So, with the support of a very kind and loving husband, I retired early and spent the next 5 years immersing myself in finding who/what was attached to that voice saying, “Create”.
On that journey, I found a way to make sense of the world. I discovered how to love myself and all that is. I forged a path out of the trauma and pain of my upbringing, to the sunlit path of heart-centered living. And I am so grateful for that!
I also tried several creative pursuits (taking the message literally as I am wont to do). My first reaction to the “Create” message was “WTH? I don’t have a creative bone in my body! I don’t sing or dance, or paint or draw, or write poetry, or design beautiful things!” But I did. At least in bits and parts, fits and starts all throughout my life. So, I created some cool paintings that some people have complimented. I took a weekend sewing class and achieved the prize of “Grand Master of Design,” I experimented with mosaic tiles, designed some furniture to fill some specific needs and beautifully decorated each home my husband and I have purchased. And then the idea for the children’s books came to me, and not just one book, but dozens of books! Was THAT it? Is that what I was to “Create”??
In the process of my spiritual growth, I’ve come to realize that the unsustainable, chaotic and self-centered way of life that has led humanity to 2025 is ending, and there is a new way to live and be in the world: heart-centered living. It’s the only thing that makes sense on a microscopic and macroscopic, individual and collective level. And that’s when it hit me: perhaps my humble efforts will help to usher in this new age of Love, Light, Harmony and Cooperation on this beautiful planet of ours! That registers in my heart in a way that painting, sewing, writing and decorating failed to fully do. Or perhaps I share those skills in a heart-centered way and help my fellow travelers navigate to their own heart-centered living so together we create this more loving and harmonious way of being as the 21st century unfolds. Stay tuned….I think the answer is still unfolding. 😍
